2019 was a great year. It was so great, when I think about it I cannot help but cringe about how good the year was to me. I don’t mean to brag, but I genuinely felt like I made some progress. A good amount of progress in as many departments as I could.
Now it’s 2020, and I find myself building on the amazing happenings and growth spurts of that wonderful year.
And the theme this year is going to be “deep cleaned the house.”
Which introduces me to the quote that will be the metaphor for this post:
“We’ve all got PTSD” — Curren$y.
I read this twit a few days ago when I stumbled upon Curren$y’s twitter page. For as long as I can remember, I have listened to his music and the message that he shares has had a great impact on me. I would even venture to say that he has had the greatest impact on me as I have grown the last 9 to 10 years.
So naturally, I paused and gave the sentence another try to see if there was more meaning that I was meant to understand.
Turned out, I missed a meme that went along the tweet which clarified it all together for me.
The term PTSD was defined in this case as having the “potential to stack doe.”
I laughed and realized that I’m taking life too seriously and moved on with my day.
Today that quote came back with a bit more meaning.
I decided to be good to me by doing some yoga to stretch my body.
I took about 45 minutes to an hour just stretching my body using some youtube videos as guidance.
Amidst this workout, there was a point when I felt a sharp sensation of relief.
As if my body had been detached along with the limbs and stretched just like Mr. Fantastic.
And that’s when I realized the meaning of “we all have PTSD.”
I looked myself in the mirror, shirtless and very aware that my body was carrying more than its fair share.
All of a sudden I saw anger, frustration, and a bundle of negative energy trapped under my skin.